i simply forgot to answer 2 of the comments on the last journal. -__- sorry... this journal will have faster replies i swear! *is worst replier ever*

loooong journal and hopefully the links work idk


FANBOOK OPEN CALL

drumroll please... i have decided to start an exciting project!! *a fanbook for la corda d'oro!!!* (it's a video game, anime, and manga!! manga released by shojo beat. that's from viz media) the book is called "Capriccio."
this is a big effing deal, as joe biden would say. XDDD a project that will take a long time for me to do, since i am doing a whole bunch of pics for it. and it will NOT be starting soon. probably starting in late summer or fall. but this book will be printed and sold, and a little money will be made!! ^____^ (all hail capitalism!! XD) anyway, YOU might be able to be in the book too!! yes that's right... you can be a guest artist!! do one pic or do several, i don't care. any anime-style artist is welcome to ask me about being in it. but as i said, this is a real book that will be printed and sold, and i can't just throw quality out the window. so you have to have a certain quality level. idk how to define it though. but yeah, sorry, i can't just randomly accept anyone and everyone.

*****CHECK OUT THE GROUP RIGHT HERE: ******
members: people who support the book. admins are actually doing pages for the book. i have to approve admins, but members are automatically approved! go ahead and join and/or watch. comment or note if you want to be in the book. but, read the blog entry first!!
also we have a picture of the 2 weeks!! link me to your fave corda pics and they may be posted on the group page <3

EDIT MAY 16TH: MANGA/ANIME ARTIST RESOURCES
this section was added on the 16th, everything else on this journal was written on the 15th
i have just created a new tumblr blog!! it's all about giving resources and tutorials to anime artists. go to [link] AHH blog on tumblr (lol) this blog just started so don't expect too much right now.

STYLE CHANGE

i'm figuring out ways to change my style some. i was already doing that actually, but not much. styles naturally change over time with most artists and i am no exception. but right now i am making more of a purposeful effort to change it. so what i'm doing is making faces slightly wider and eyes smaller. not really small but smaller than they were before.

a lot of people, a while ago, told me to make my eyes smaller. but then, i was saying to them that i didn't know how to change them in a way that i would LIKE. so i kept them the way they were. i like big eyes anyway. it was extremely irritating to have a million people all tell me "eyes are too big." it was a broken record!! and, it's so much easier to critique others' art than to actually do art. what most of those critiquers didn't realize is that i can't just "make the eyes smaller" and everything would be fine. again, i need to to it in a way that i LIKED. what i realized, actually i realized this a few months ago, is that you have to think about the whole face, not just the eyes. the shape of the face, the position of the nose and mouth, the position of eyes, the height, width, eyeball shape, height, width, eye shape, forehead, etc etc... so much to think about. it's difficult to get it so that i actually like how it looks. yet a million people told me "make the eyes smaller!!" without any thought as to how tricky it is for me to actually do it. oooh this fits in perfectly with my next topic...

CRITIQUES

...which is annoying critiquers. thankfully i haven't had as many as 1.5 years ago or whenever that was. but there are always some here and there, on da. *and i'm always afraid.* after many poeple critiqued (and insulted) me at once (actually there were two incidents), i became less trusting of people on da. if i see a comment in my inbox that's from a name i don't recognize, i'm afraid of it and hesitate to read it. that's the other reason i take so long to reply to people, and sometimes don't reply at all because my inbox is so full- i just don't want to read some of my messages. (the main reason i reply late really is being busy, however.) and one time, i think i might have mistaken someone for a troll when they actually were a sincere person!! (but what they said to me seemed weird so i got suspicious)

i don't trust people easily, when it comes to crits. all those people who gave me crits those two incidents that happened a while back, most of you were annoying and condescending, and all you've done is made me less open to critiques, not more. because i don't trust. i will read critiques but actually trusting what they say? really taking it to heart? maybe not. things that make me trust what you say:
-if you talk in a kind and helpful way instead of a lecturing/condescending way. that way, i know you are critiquing because you want to help me, not because you want to put me down to make yourself feel superior.
-if you fave or watch or at least talked to me several times. that way, i know you truly care about my art.
-if you draw anime yourself, especially shojo. that way, i know you have a similar artistic mindset.
-if you have a high skill level. that way, i know you have a lot of knowledge.

you don't have to have all four of these things, just one is fine. (well the first one is a must.) but you see, i got a lot of crits from people who were condescending, who were strangers i've never talked to before, who didn't draw anime, and who had poor skills. all four of those at once!! and i'm like "you think i will actually take you seriously?!!"

MANGA

grjigjreiger;ogejligeogheorghoege i am so sorry guyssss i have got to tell you, i have not worked on the manga for months!! i said last journal i was starting right now. but i did 3 rough drafts of pages and then stopped. and i am going to redo those 3 rough drafts... sigh. well here is why: one reason is schoolwork. and sadly, i'm taking some summer classes (because i need more credits!!) so i didn't escape school because it's summer. the other reason was that i wanted to finish several arts on my to-do list first. those several arts took a LONG time (because of school) and i'm still not done. but, good news!! i will work on it after i finish 2 pics i am working on right now- laaaaate contest prizes for cherri fanclub's summer contest. so i will get to work on it by the end of the week hopefully!! (gotta start school next week though, waaaah)

the order of my mangas has changed since my last journal. check it out on my page and my tumblr! i'll say it here too: my current manga is a one-shot, Secrets of an Agent. i was supposed to send it to yen press but obviously that didn't work out... maybe next year. next, remake of a one-shot called Frozen Love. next, one-shot starring my oc Evelyn. then, a 1 or 2 chapter manga called Gilded. after that, i AM planning to do a Christmas one-shot manga with evelyn, i wasn't sure before. after that, 6-7 chapter manga, DreamGuy: The Power of a Pencil. and then i might do The Adventures of SuprerAwesomePants, a manga series. and also: of course, these are long-range plans so all of this is subject to change.

btw: i just finished junior year of college! (3rd year) i got good grades... because i only took 4 classes. (usually people take 5-6 a semester) i usually am not good at college. also, i have to take summer classes all summer and 6 classes fall AND spring semester of senior year. i MIGHT graduate spring semester 2013. if not then in summer 2013. so, school is looking busy until i graduate. i really want to do the manga and fanbook though. will try to manage my time wisely. lol just kidding. impossible!!

AMERICAN IDOL

i've been watching idol since season 6, and this is season 11. it's almost over!!! *sob* there are  only 2 weeks left, this week and the finale next week. i'm so excited for the finale, it's a giant party on tv. <3 so... there are 3 people left: jessica, joshua, and philip. if you have been paying attention to my page, you know that i support jessica 8DDDD she has an incredible talent, you won't believe it... so VOTE FOR HER!!!! A LOT!!!! I'M SERIOUS!!!! DO IT!!!!! HOW MANY EXCLAMATION MARKS AND CAPITAL LETTERS DO I NEED TO TYPE BEFORE YOU GET THE PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her american idol contestant page: [link]   also, american idol has a youtube channel and you can see people's performances. plus, jessica did some singing on youtube before she joined idol. so there are many vids from the past few years, of jessica singing. i've seen most of them... because i am becoming a huge jessica fangirl *___* search her name on yt!! there is tons to find. also her twitter name is @jsanzhezai11 [link]

also... someone else i have to promote is johnny keyser!! he got eliminated waaaaay to early in the competition, which surprised many people because his audition was really good and it seemed like he would go far. (plus, he's hot. XDDD)  HOWEVER!!! he is an inspiring person- immediately after his idol run was over, he got to work planning some songs, hoping for a deal with some music producers... well gues what, he got one!! and recorded a 7-song EP to be released tomorrow!! yep, this all happened so fast... but he gives his fans a lot of updates through fb, twitter, and yt. seriously guys check it out... this guy is a quickly rising star!! twitter [link]   fb  [link]   yt  [link]   support johnny!! (and jessica )

TEEN WOLF

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG THIS SHOW <333333333 *fangirl mode* it's an mtv show and i don't even watch mtv. XD it premiered last summer and now it's back for season 2!! (on june 3rd) if you watch the s2 trailer,  [link]  remember to share with friends. if enough people watch they will give a 10-min preview of first episode! AND GUESS WHAT, ALL S1 EPS ARE ON THAT SITE. so if you missed s1, go watch!! there are 12 eps. here's ep 1: [link]

ANIMAZEMENT

an anime convention in north carolina!! it's the only one i've ever been to. i've been 3 times i think. but i didn't get to go last year. i will try to go this year, just for a couple of hours on saturday i guess. -___- (don't know) and omg, j-pop singer KOTOKO will be there and i was already familiar with her (for a few years)!!! i'm so happy ^___^ also one of the voice actors for english dub madoka magica. (i want to buy those DVD's...) also, firefly376 will be there: [link] animazement website is:  [link] oh and madoka USA's site is: [link]

SONG SPOTLIGHT

adam lambert <3 been a fan of his since american idol season 8, when he came in 2nd. (he shoulda won...) well he has a new CD release TODAY!! his second album <3 it's called "trespassing." and he's going to perform on american idol on thursday. ^___^ there is a normal version of the album and a deluxe with 3 more songs. and you can hear all the songs for free, click here:  [link] (actually you have to click another link on that page, then select your country)  there's some disco-ish stuff on there XD i love him <3 btw i love "nirvana" *____*